We had to share a bed at the loj. Earlier he kissed me and asked me to go out to his car. I said no. I was maybe interested in kissing but I had probably had too much cider to judge properly. I guess I did want to snuggle. But instead he insisted on touching me all night. With no rest no matter what I did. I was petrified. I kept pushing his hand away. I was rigid. I wanted to move to a different bed but didn't want everyone else to see. I was afraid what would happen if I tried to move. Finally the night ended.
I still go cold every time I see him around campus. I told one of my friends but haven't done anything to take action. And I don't want to because I want to pretend it never happened.